So like Wow. Lunesta. You all know my stories about not being able to sleep. I have let it go for too long. I have had too many Xanax, valiums, somas, beers, martinis, tylenol pm's, melatonin.....too much crap. So I thought I would try Lunesta.
So in October, I went to the doctor and asked him if it would be right for me, and what are the side effects. He said, "Well, some people experience a funny taste in their mouths. But they love it. Here is a prescription." I didnt even care how little he asked me, I just wanted it so bad. I ran to the pharmacy and filled it. I was so excited. I got in my jammies, and ceremoniously took my "first personally perscribed sleeping pill."
GOOD LORDY. I could slap you. I had the most wonderful dreamy sleep. I fell beautifully asleep in 30 minutes of taking it, at about 11:00pm. I woke up filled with sunshine at 7:30 in the morning. I got up and did laundry. I thought God had adopted my body and left my world filled with magic and glee. I took it the following night and the same thing happened.
But the third day, I started getting REALLY exicted about taking it. I thought....wOW i can sllleeeeeppppp. The lunesta was calling me, take me, take me. I thought this very weird since I don't have much of an addictive personality. Out of curiousity I popped on the net to read a little more about it. (granted i had read all of the "promotional stuff", etc. but i was digging for the dirt.....) I found that it can be habit formning, not addictive but HABIT FORMING. Just like insomnia. I already had a habit of not falling asleep, I did not want to form a habit of taking a pill. So I decided I would only take it about 3 nights a week on the days I had the most trouble sleeping.
It was crazy because I had a clear head, I was more productive during the day because I felt rested, which if you haven't noticed, I never felt rested.....I felt so freakin great!!!!! I got so much done, and my spirit was back.
Lets just say things have been dandy for about two months. I take it on my worst nights and sleep like a baby. But then things started to get a little weird.
I can't hold on to anything. I am so clumsy. I drop stuff, bump into stuff, cut my self, all sorts of stuff. But now, I dont feel as refreshed as I first did. I find myself sleeping longer, or taking a little longer to go sleep. I thought by spacing them out they would not build up in my system or give me a tolerance. But then the worst happened.
I got a night terror. A freakin crazy ass nightmare. I never have nightmares. The only time I had ever had a nightmare was on melatonin. But this was a night terror. It was absolutely horrifying. I dreamt that devils were trying to get into my body. But i could REALLY feel them. but i was asleep. But I could feel them trying to get in. I became afraid and tried to pray to God to help, and then when I did, I felt a different sensation. Like God was shining a protecting light on me. This was back and forth, like a Quentin Terratino movie. Or Scorsese or something...(sp???) It was a fast moving picture that was weighty and suffocating. The sensations were real, and I was screaming out to Kev to help me, to wake me up. But I really didn't. It was so weird. I was so disturbed by this, I couldnt even get out of bed to pee when I woke up cuz I thought the demons would get me. This dream has stayed with me for 2 days now.
So needless to say, i was too afraid to take it the next night. Or even tonight. I dont know how normal this is, can't find alot of info on it. But if anyone has had this problem please let me know!
And quite honestly this sux because I really liked this stuff! I thought it was going to help. But now I am left wondering what on earth I am poisoning my body with!!!!!! EEEKKKKKK
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