Lunesta....

So like Wow.  Lunesta.  You all know my stories about not being able to sleep.  I have let it go for too long.  I have had too many Xanax, valiums, somas, beers, martinis, tylenol pm's, melatonin.....too much crap.  So I thought I would try Lunesta. 

So in October, I went to the doctor and asked him if it would be right for me, and what are the side effects.  He said, "Well, some people experience a funny taste in their mouths.  But they love it.  Here is a prescription."  I didnt even care how little he asked me, I just wanted it so bad.  I ran to the pharmacy and filled it.  I was so excited.  I got in my jammies, and ceremoniously took my "first personally perscribed sleeping pill."

GOOD LORDY.  I could slap you.  I had the most wonderful dreamy sleep.  I fell beautifully asleep in 30 minutes of taking it, at about 11:00pm.  I woke up filled with sunshine at 7:30 in the morning.  I got up and did laundry.  I thought God had adopted my body and left my world filled with magic and glee.  I took it the following night and the same thing happened.

But the third day, I started getting REALLY exicted about taking it.  I thought....wOW  i can sllleeeeeppppp.  The lunesta was calling me, take me, take me.  I thought this very weird since I don't have much of an addictive personality.  Out of curiousity I popped on the net to read a little more about it.  (granted i had read all of the "promotional stuff", etc.  but i was digging for the dirt.....)  I found that it can be habit formning, not addictive but HABIT FORMING.  Just like insomnia.  I already had a habit of not falling asleep, I did not want to form a habit of taking a pill.  So I decided I would only take it about 3 nights a week on the days I had the most trouble sleeping.

It was crazy because I had a clear head, I was more productive during the day because I felt rested, which if you haven't noticed, I never felt rested.....I felt so freakin great!!!!!  I got so much done, and my spirit was back.

Lets just say things have been dandy for about two months.  I take it on my worst nights and sleep like a baby.  But then things started to get a little weird.

I can't hold on to anything.  I am so clumsy.  I drop stuff, bump into stuff, cut my self, all sorts of stuff.  But now, I dont feel as refreshed as I first did.  I find myself sleeping longer, or taking a little longer to go sleep.  I thought by spacing them out they would not build up in my system or give me a tolerance. But then the worst happened.

I got a night terror.  A freakin crazy ass nightmare.  I never have nightmares.  The only time I had ever had a nightmare was on melatonin.  But this was a night terror.  It was absolutely horrifying.  I dreamt that devils were trying to get into my body.  But i could REALLY feel them.  but i was asleep.  But I could feel them trying to get in.  I became afraid and tried to pray to God to help, and then when I did, I felt a different sensation. Like God was shining a protecting light on me.  This was back and forth, like a Quentin Terratino movie.  Or Scorsese or something...(sp???)  It was a fast moving picture that was weighty and suffocating.  The sensations were real, and I was screaming out to Kev to help me, to wake me up.  But I really didn't.  It was so weird.  I was so disturbed by this, I couldnt even get out of bed to pee when I woke up cuz I thought the demons would get me.  This dream has stayed with me for 2 days now. 

So needless to say, i was too afraid to take it the next night.  Or even tonight.  I dont know how normal this is, can't find alot of info on it.  But if anyone has had this problem please let me know!

And quite honestly this sux because I really liked this stuff!  I thought it was going to help.  But now I am left wondering what on earth I am poisoning my body with!!!!!!  EEEKKKKKK

Comments

[Drusus]

hmmm... sounds like the green fairy kicked your ass... I always thought that butterfly landing on people was a little scary...

[Heaven]

but at times it can be quite nice....

[Drusus]

Very funny images of you, a green butterfly, and the Marvin Gaye song, "Let's Get It On" are now crowding my thoughts...

[pizo]

I tried Lunesta but it kept me awake due to I spent the whole night trying to catch that green butterfly that was in my room, dang! (just kidding) I dont have sleep problems for the most part. I love Lucid Dreaming, I can kick the nightmares ass!